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donnycannibal @ 2006-10-30T17:46:00

2006-10-30T17:50:20Z

yet again i relize how much i hate this fuckin site but i like to read other peoples problems.

OH AND ANOTHER THING , FUCK YOU. NOT YOU ...THE PERSON BEHIND YOU ....YEAH YOU.

donnycannibal @ 2006-05-09T13:31:00

2006-05-09T18:33:21Z

im getting so fuckin sick of living here lately. im such a BAD PERSON ....nothing is fair to kara , AND IM ALWAYS IN THE WRONG. i wanna go home .... i hate waking up every day and feeling so fuckin sick. i guess lately ive been wonderinf if this is actualy going to work.

but like i said , i just wanna go home.

donnycannibal @ 2006-03-15T14:48:00

2006-03-15T20:53:29Z

ok , i dont things. i hate the feeling of not knowing or always being the one to blame. dont do things that i would make fun of you for and i wont make fun. i am a bully , grew up a bully and always will be one....want me to change? too bad i guess. not int he harsh way , its just how i am ...like sorry , too bad ...im always a fuckin jerk right? but sometimes you make me a jerk. i dont know if you understand...but like shit , I CANT HELP IT!whatever though ...i hate this fucking journal , but i have no body to talk to in this gay town.

donnycannibal @ 2005-12-29T22:24:00

2005-12-30T04:38:17Z

ok so , martin got this really funny xmas card that was from his boss , and it was all computer made....NO LOVE AT ALL. who the hell does that? pretty good way to spend money i think .... NOT <---(bring back bill&ted)...ANYHOW ...ive got something that KILLS your card martin... this is from my mom , witch i havent seen in a good 8-10 years. she sends her love.

***

YAY!!! not even an exclamation point ....OR "LOVE MOM"

neat.

merry christmas mom

***IF ITS TOO SMALL TO READ , ALL IT SAYS IS

merry christmas

x-rated-mas

2005-12-25T18:39:49Z

i feel uber weird.... thi sis yet another christmas without my family ...but the first one where i am not with any of my family ...i shouldnt say that , this is my new family...but i still feel awkward. and i dont like this feeling.

i guess everything will be alright.

7SONGS FOR THE DEAD

2005-12-25T02:44:50Z

TAGGED BY ROBLEY

1.The Strokes - Reptilia
2.Johnny Cash - Cocaine Blues
3.The Walkmen - The Rat
4.Demented Are Go - I Wanna Be Your Slave
5.Johnny Thunders/Wayne Kramer(gangwar) - Born Too Loose
6.The Bangles - Walk Like An Egyptian
7.Ray Charles - Ive Got A Woman

i could keep going forever , my taste is as wide as my moms poohole.

UP NEXT

MARLY , GEORGIA , RACHEL , LEWKISS ..... i really need more people on my list :(

in loving memory

2005-11-21T23:06:19Z

ok , so this day just keeps getting worse.

i just got a phonecall from Angela , my dads fiance and turns out that my aunt has passed away.
she was farily old , and was very very sick.

my marry was the sweetest lady that i know ... i never was too close with the native side of my family , but my aunt was close to us and we were really close to her. she was the type of person to always make you laugh and no show her affection in any situation.

im really sad that i just moved here and now i wont be there so be with ym family and know that evryone is together without me fucking hurts.

AUNT MARRY , I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. IM SORRY I CANT BE THERE .

kenneth john howse.

vampires suck

2005-11-21T22:33:02Z

i really dont like the taste of blood , i figure this is just stress now , im a wreck ...deep down inside these past couple days have payed a toll on my innards. anxiety is in full effect. there is blood in the subway soup bowl and a crack in my heart.

i didnt mean to freak out so fuckin hard but what am i supposed to do when the thing i say dont mean anything to you?
how ami supposed to feel when what matters to me makes you say things that will just hurt me.

my fuckin stomach kills.

i fuckin hate oakbank

2005-11-21T20:32:42Z

plain and simple ..oakbank makes me want to down cyanide

donnycannibal @ 2005-10-02T23:38:00

2005-10-03T03:37:32Z

p.fuckin.s.

http://www.miscarriageassociation.org.uk/

suck an egg.

SOW.

people are obviously tools

2005-10-03T03:24:43Z

georgia got offended by my picture of an aborted fetus.

GREAT ...alot of you know that my sence of humor is a bit macabre, who cares.

georgia , this one is for you.

donnycannibal @ 2005-09-17T17:19:00

2005-09-17T21:18:34Z

im comming home soon. im excited.

life after life

2005-08-27T20:19:29Z

i never thought to much of it ....but when did what i want out of life become a fantasy?
the things we shared i thought were true was just another fake smile.
im not saying that what we have is impure .... just i feel a bit lied to.
i know its a longshot , but robbing banks doesnt sound half bad.
killing those who stand in our way.
not hididng behind an image.
honestly , i thought it wasnt a joke.... BUT ...guess what kids... yours truely is just another fuckin joke.

i can thelp but sit here and wonder , what am i going to become?
i want what i want....and i am going to get it.

i am the red straight razor , the one who bathes in blood.

donnycannibal @ 2005-08-26T16:52:00

2005-08-26T20:53:00Z

i hate your friends.
i despise your friends.
i am jealous of your friends.
i want to kill your friends.
i want to be your friend.

donnycannibal @ 2005-08-26T16:47:00

2005-08-26T20:47:01Z

i put people in the worst positions , i suck at life

the most hated

2005-08-18T09:22:39Z

if anybody reads this shit , hook me up with some bands yo ulike that not many people know about.
i know alot of bands , so dont get cheap. I WANT QUALITY! or crap ....either or , im just looking for soemthing new.

77/psychobilly/powerpop .....

JUST GIMME GIMME GIMME...

oh yeah , im gonna be FUCKINSTIEN for halloween. sweet shit. pretty much gonna be frankenstien , but im gonna charge up my quiff. its getting long now :D i bet you are all jealous :D:D:D

anyways ... just take your fingers out of your ass's , and type up some good shit yo.

and maybe ill give you all a lapdance in return.

SHOW ME YOU'RE NASTY

donnycannibal @ 2005-08-08T10:30:00

2005-08-08T14:31:41Z

yeah so , im pretty fuckin bored and i wanna go back to winnipeg. its alot better then here. soup came back from the yukon. and paul is back from BC. so its almost like the ol' skate crew is back together. we are just missing tom. what a cheeky fellow.lately , i have been doing alot of 'alone' time. not wackin off (i still do plenty of that....but thats not what i mean by alone time). it feels great. i found a new spot to skate , hence alone time.

i miss you kara.

HOLY FUCK

2005-07-10T20:21:41Z

ok ...last night ...let me just say

WOW .... i had alot of fun :D

Me , Mike , Josh , Tony and Davey totally jammed out. we made nooooooo sence at all. i made up a song called "cum on my face". it was fuckin great.

i had another adventure with Wild Irish Rose ....man ... that shit is fuckin great. it makes me wanna hurt myself ....like i did :|

i wanna make a band with those guys. im sure we would get boo'd off of stage.

i also puked ALOT this morning and Bev (karas mommy) gave me some Pepto ...that shit is mad gross.

oh yeah , i also almost killed some Italian idiot. he made me angry....he all "get the fuck outta my face...1....2...3" and i stayed there ...and i told him to count again ....cuz i didnt relize what was going on ...then his bitch wife came out and started yelling and shit ...it was fuckin funny. i got pulled away from not punching him in the mouth.

thre should be more to this story...but ill leave it up to you guys.

I LOVE KARA

the end

i dont know if i want to care

2005-07-08T22:46:32Z

u win...i give up
u could have been polite enough to tell me u didn't want to talk
u have my email...
u know how to get in touch...
i thought we could have met when we come in on tuesday, but now i realize you just don't want to have anything to do with me
i'll always luv u...mom

blah blah blah ...like some of you know , i havent seen my mother in years. now she wants to see if ill meet up with her in Winnipeg to have a talk. Its just like her to not go out of her way to come see me or anything , but if she happens to be driving by , she will wann have a chat. Ive lived my years not knowwing her and i think i will live the rest the same.

Mother , i am sorry i dont care for you ...but look what you have done.

FO RIZZLE

2005-07-02T18:50:55Z

yeah .... canada day was off the hook yo ...started off with a bang you could say. we walked through the OZ and seen busby ...who was SHITFACED and ran away witha shopping cart only to land on his face ....SEXCELLENT . yeah , we tugged over to ozzy bridge and popped a squat underoos for a tick and lit psychomike lit up a skreetcher so we had to bolt. i almost pooped me shorts. afterwords we skated towards SUBWAYS to go molest Sarah , did that and she said we should do something afterwords (instead of us going to Skarletts). so we waited for her after work only for her to ditch us .... :| FUCKNUT!!! ...other stuff happend too ...we played find the pinko scum (collin commie). he was doped up and we had to find his socialist ass before the narcs did. we did more stuff , i skated ...uhhhh we checked the Ferral Bros out yet again...this time i think they were piss ....it was free though ...so who gives 3 pieces of poorly mad gum. we topped the night of at Angelicas house with a few pooners and a couple cold shots. then me and kara came home and SO did it ...it was rad ...we did 4 or 5 possitions. SCORE....wll imma go be a fuck.

EAT IT.

YES YES

2005-06-26T17:05:03Z

i am here.

brain draining brain drainer

2005-06-03T00:02:49Z

y'know .... i dont know why i give a fuck. i shouldnt. there is just a point and place when you have to say to yourself ....."fuck it". it only makes sence to me like this. so yes. fuck it.

mother fucker

2005-05-20T05:24:04Z

i havent seen me momma in a good 7 years. and the last time we talked , i hung up on her.

she drives me up the bloody wall. she only calls once a year and tries to tell me she loves me. well fuck her.

this is an email i just recieved from her.

hi, it's your mother, if you want to talk, let me know, last time we spoke - i got hung up on, and when i called back stacy said you didn't want to talk to me. if that is so then just let me know.
always remember that i love you

ok , the email was sent by Karen Poitras ....and she has to tell me "its your mother" .... what does she take me for ...what i dont know my mothers own name?!

fuck she knows how to make me mad.

donnycannibal @ 2005-05-02T03:54:00

2005-05-02T08:07:53Z

the past few weeks have been haggard. it feels like kara is slipping away from me and i dont understand why. none of these questions are directed at you ...just shit i need to get off of my chest.

are you sure you are ready for this? do you think i appreteate you? do you still feel that same way as when we first met? can you go through the rest of your life knowing im the only boy who will look you int he eyes and say "i love you"? why do you get so worked up over me?

maybe its the same reason i get so worked up about you.

Kara , if you dont know ho wmuch you mean to me , then there is a problem.
i cant go a single day without worrying or just being jealous of the people around you. it affects me so much. i find myself getting angry at the stupidist things and it drives me mad.i kinda panik sometimes , i think you will end up leaving me or something ... i know thats a dumb thing to say ... but i have to be honest , its been driving me insane.

when you tell me nobody wants you or that no other boy can love you ...i cant help but think that your crazy.why wouldnt ANYONE love you? you brought so much back into my heart and i cant ever thank you enough for that.look at yourself today kara ... look at yourself and fuckin relize how beautiful you are.it hurts me when you even joke around about you not caring for yourself :(
i hope what you said about me filling something in your heart up was true ...and if it is , walk with your head high. im obviously not great at writing stuff thats meaningful ...but i wanted to get some of this out

your my cannibal girl.
im never letting you go.
EVEN IF I HAVE TO KILL YOU!!!!
your always gonna be my girl *nods*

i love you so much kara <3

"ZORK" said zoggo!

2005-04-28T09:35:43Z

5:26am ....

caffiene pills are doing there job...

i went on a journey and found ZOGGO ...

i thought i lost him ... but oh no , he was just hiding with Ernie.

Spaceman Bert is still out there somewhere ... he should be home soon , dinner is in the oven.

and carving pills into the shapes of hearts is bloody well hard. DAMN YOU BATMAN.....damn you